anatomy of me

Hello.

2006-09-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hello.

It's been way way long time since I update.If you guys been wondering why,actually I've moved together with my love to somewhere we think we can have better privacy.Well at least better than here.I'll keep this page running though and update whenever I like.Link me or nt,wanna read thru my journals or so,i don't care.Really.So balls to all.Oh yea,both of us are happy now.

tomisrandom.livejournal.com
www.myspace.com/himynameisfaizal

Avasion.

2006-05-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

Avasion.

Just having the urge to update with something random.Things running through my mind but I don't even know what I'm thinking.The only thing I could figure out is The Simpsons.

The Real Simpsons.

They don't need to whisper.

2006-05-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

They don't need to whisper.

Another video by Angels and Airwaves.I'm just hooked to their songs now.I think their are an awesome band.

It hurts by Angels and Airwaves.

Up on revolution.

2006-05-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

Up on revolution.

Not a paranormal encounter.Just things which you think are out of this world.Something like an imagination went wild.Imagination going through space at a very fast pace.There's no way you can slow things down.Hmmm.

Now,I'm thinking of UFO's.Weird.

Oh yea,I think time travel is cool.You can travel through time when you dream.

Moderation.

2006-05-12T09:36:00.000+08:00

Moderation.

Great reviews and feedbacks.This is awesome.Let's make it into a commercial ad or something.It will spread the words to the mass.This is beautiful.A real breakthrough.

This is just the beginning.

More to come.

Peace.

Transit.

2006-05-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

Transit.

Things are setting in.Giving me the strange excitement.I'm visualising it already as I'm working towards it.A whole new experience awaits.I won't regret doing this.I swear.I believe it will happen for a reason.At least maybe,I'll gain something good out of this.

Here's a video to enjoy.

The Adventure by Angels and Airwaves.

Today is today.

2006-05-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

Today is today.

Factual transitions : Maybe tomorrow

I wanna achieve something different.Just something different which could make a total change in life.It's all that I have thought of all this while.I'll go on with it and I won't turn back.Life is like a valkyrie missile, a weapon used in the cold war that carries a nuclear weapon.I just see something special and beautiful coming.

The future.

Hello Future.

2006-05-10T00:59:00.000+08:00

Hello Future.

Back.Long overdue entries.

I'm just wondering if I'm living in the present not hold back by the past and thinking about the future.hmmm...Questions rises in the present about the future.but these questions have clueless answers leaving me hanging.Is it wrong to actually think and planning your future?Will it create problems when you think too far?Will a planned present determine your future?

Well I'm still thinking and nothing is solve yet.Hopefully it will.Sooner or later?I have no idea yet.

Clueless present.

I hope to see you soon.

Through Denver.

2006-04-24T02:33:00.000+08:00

Through Denver.

Of hopes and random notes.Boredom strikes but who cares.I'm happy.Always.

Always by Blink 182.

Love is the new lie?

Warped.

2006-04-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

Warped.

Mode:Miserable.

Currently missing in the present world context.Trapped in the minds of the enemy.No escape.Not a single way.It controls.Physically and mentally.

Assignments.

....Post-intermission.

Transmission.

2006-04-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

Transmission.

Atmosphere: Empty.
Temperature: 18 degree celsius.
Sounds: Ambient.
Thoughts: The sound of airwaves nothing much compared to these empty thoughts.I shall bring you to the battleground.You've become my distraction.

Beeps.

Discovering the Waterfront-Silverstein.

Due by random.

2006-04-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

Due by random.

As you all can see,I've changed my layout and blog add to www.duebyrandom.blogspot.com.So just update my link and randomness starts here.Later.

The Adventure(Piano) by Angels and Airwaves.

Dejavu.

2006-04-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

Dejavu.

Staring at the empty space.
thinking.maybe not.
These blank thoughts are like dejavu.
Thoughts which you think would never be true.
But it keeps coming.

Another random entry.I guess.

Existence in silence.

2006-03-11T04:53:00.000+08:00

Existence in silence.

Existence in silence
Lying in random
Living in fast forward
I don't seem to see
That this should be the reason
We are the cause
The problem
The witness
The victims
Everything works vice versa
We invent
We test
We destroy
All we could do
Not in a single moment we could stop
To think
To see
To feel
That everyone,everything
Around us are suffering
The future is already destroyed by the present
Realise?

Sic.D

2006-03-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

Sic.D

The collision between the silence in man and his illusion causes the dysfunction in the world system.

...suddenly he goes all quiet and paranoia smiles.

Random.

Untitled.

2006-03-04T07:06:00.000+08:00

Untitled.

The world in two angles.
The way I see it,
left on its own.
Undead at a glance.
Dying on the second.
Recounting the deaths of the innocent.
Too much to be true.
The world being a stage,
where killings are like acting routines,
is a source of entertainment for the "upper authorities".
Man is full of contradiction and vengeance.

Well indeed the world is full of conspiracies.

In two different angles I see it.

2006-03-03T02:52:00.000+08:00

In two different angles I see it.

Here's an update aQ..haha!hmmm..where shall I start?Ok on Monday had presentation and lectures through out till like 4 den went home.I was like damn tired and dozing off in class.On Tuesday,(I know you've been wanting me to blog this) I got no class so decided to have lunch with aQ.Before that,my parents bumped into her.So yea.Biase jugak bual-bual panjang.Padan muker.haha!anak "kesayang" dorang per.haha!Had lunch at banquet cp.Craps over late lunch.haha!pader dulu tak berubah-ubah.Samer jugak.Den went to cut my hair.Thanks to you that my mum force me to cut my hair.damn.Stop being like my mum nagging me to cut my hair.Lol.Lepak at esplanade jap after that.Headed home.Time balek ader part touching siket.Kene screen dgn police.Dah lamer tak kene screen alih-alih kene.Macam bodoh.Den yesterday,presentation and class as usual.Lecture is a killer man.Especially comes to the engineering and ergonomics.haiya.Today,stayed home the whole day.Slack infront of the computer,guitar and writing song.Later no class and no plans yet.Hmmm.Saturday jamming at 1-3pm then cosy canopy with the rest maybe.or retro musique cafe.Ok I'm sleepy now till the next time.

This time I break silence
I see you as an illusion
These walls in between
A design created that has fallen in
the lights shut living in darkness
Here we go,in different directions
walking away without guidance

the four letter word is now a dysfunction
nothing works
More like a collision
between hearts and reality
blinded with things you couldn't see
there's nothing left I could picture
just a gun waiting to trigger

My mind saw everything you couldn't say
And my heart felt every pretense you played
The beauty of it all was
You never took a second to grieve
And I'm reckless with these memories
The fights that never took place
The love that was never betrayed

I begged you to re-consider
And you said I'm such a failure.

This is what I came out with.Credits to the kakak for helping out.haha!

Well I wish for...

2006-02-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

Well I wish for...

Hey hey.It's my birthday today.I still can't believe I'm 19 already.haha!First thing had a surprise from the kakak,wir and fir yst.It was also from the makciks too.I got my Fall of Troy tee.It's awesome!Thanks guys.Then went to watch Fd3 at cineleisure.Damn its hell of a gruesome show.You guys should watch it for yourself.And today went to esplanade with Ezrie and the gang.Free cake and mess on my face.Damn you guys.haha!You guys were like wanting to kill me with the "what shit is that called".Freaks.Later we'll be playing a show at Gas Haus.Woohoo!A gig on my birthday.It's from 5pm onwards and the tickets will be 5bux.I've got no idea of the details of the gig but do come down to give us your support.

Ok I need a rest now.Will be a long day for me later.

"I've given alot of thought to,
the nights we use to have,
The days have come and gone,
our live went by so fast."

I wanna have the same last dream again.

2006-02-24T13:04:00.000+08:00

I wanna have the same last dream again.

My blog needs an update.Here it goes.Been thinking alot these few days and I finally realised my priority in life.Well in fact priorities.I'm getting a hang on with my life already.Afterall,things will be better eventually but it will all depend on you to make it happen or not.I'm starting to love and appreciate my life better.I'm cool.haha!Anyway,Angels and Airwaves or you know it as AVA is awesome.It is the most anticipating band of the year for me.Can't wait for the album to be release.I really think Tom Delonge has done and achieved alot besides Blink182 and Boxcar Racer.The song Adventure by AVA has change my life alot.I guess it has.You guys should check it out.It's a nice song.

My birthday in 2 days time.Suddenly I feel excited.haha!

Oh yea.Having jamming and Fd3 later with the kids.

Later.

"My dearest friends
Even if ur hope has burned with time
Anything that is dead shall be re-grown...

Hello here I am
And here we go
Life’s waiting to begin."

Keyboard Shortcuts:press Ctrl with: B = Bold,I = Italic,S = Publish,D = Draft.

2006-02-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

Keyboard Shortcuts:press Ctrl with:B = Bold,I = Italic,S = Publish,D = Draft.

Ok I don't know what to type for my entry's title.I'm running out of ideas.Ok anyway,this came across my mind so I decided to blog it.Emo?as in musically wise I think all the music genres consist of emotically written lyrics or whatever you say it.Usually from what I see,their lyrics are emo-based.Does that mean all genres are emo?Afterall,I guess all genres are now intertwine with each other.It has a become a fusion.What if all the genres you can think of goes emo?

These are the possiblities you'll get.

Emo-punk,Emo-funk,Indie-emo,Emo-surf,Electro-emo,
Emo-rock,Emo-pop,Alternative-emo,Emo-jazz,Emo-blues,
Reggae-emo,Emo-hop?,Emo-metal,Acoustic-emo,
Emo-ska,Progressive-emo,Experimental-emo,
Techno-emo,Big beat emo,Post-emo,
2-step emo,A'cappella-emo,Afro-beat emo,
Emo-ambient,Emo-trance,Emo-thrash,Emo-soul,
Shoegaze-emo,Rockabilly-emo,Emo-rap,Psychedelic-
emo,Nu-jazz emo,New wave emo,Latin-emo,
Industrial-emo,Emo-grunge,Garage-emo,
Gothic-emo,Folk rock emo,Drum&bass emo,
Down-tempo emo,Disco house emo,Country emo,
Classical emo,Bluegrass-emo and so on.

You must be thinking I really got alot of time to state all this down.Yea I got the time and I'm bored.Some of the genres stated above have already exist but for some,I guess soon or never.Let's just see.

I must be emo to be scene?Hmmm..

You're not emo,you're not cool.

2006-02-19T02:31:00.000+08:00

You're not emo,you're not cool.

To grab the attention of the scene kids to listen to your music,you must sound emo or hardcore.

Get it?

Hmmm..

Freaky.

Mommy,can I have a shot gun for my birthday?

2006-02-18T02:40:00.000+08:00

Mommy,can I have a shot gun for my birthday?

Counting down.Well 8 more days before I become 1yr older.This few days left for me to make full use of my life as an 18yr old.I'm not enjoying it if you ask me.I screwed my 18.Well some people think that once I screwed part of my life,I'll be screwed for the whole life.I'll never change and will keep screwing my life.For goodness sake,human beings will eventually change for the better.It's the matter of time.If only you could believe and give that person a chance to change.Nothing is gonna help if you keep bringing he/she down and never believe in them.Life will be pointless if everyone bring each other down.Well,even if you wanna bring them down,at least believe them for some reasons.I'm sure there will be some things for you to believe in them.There's no 100% bad or good points in a person.That's what I believe though.Unless you think otherwise.I don't know.I'm not looking forward to my big day.

I was broke,I'm broke and I'll be broke.

I was bored,I'm bored and I'll be bored.

This is basically gonna happen for a period of time.Well,I have a gut feeling it will drag over my birthday.Damn.Ok my birthday wish is if I can wish for somethinng I wanna wish.Don't understand?Ok me too.Screw the wish.

It's all a wishful thinking.

I think All American Rejects is cool.

Ok later.

The knight freefall in an armor.

2006-02-14T16:35:00.000+08:00

The knight freefall in an armor.

Today.Assignments.Essays are killers.I need a new wife.

Roses are not for me.

I'm loving my date with the assignments today.

Damn.

Later.

"I shot the wizard with a shot gun today.I'm sorry."

And they laugh as the wizard hangs himself.

2006-02-10T03:40:00.000+08:00

And they laugh as the wizard hangs himself.

Ok school first.I'm now busy with assignments FINALLY.Now it really looks like I'm schooling.It's just that all the assignments are due next week and I heard we do not have a 1 week term break.The whole campus will be involve with some project shit.Argh.Ok nevermind I had enough of breaks and rest.As you all know I have only 3 school days per week and that explains all.Join my course to enjoy life and you'll be bored doing nothing.haha!Hmmm.My birthday will be around next 2 weeks and I'm not looking forward to it.Why?2 reasons.I feel old already and NS is getting near and the other reason is.Nevermind.You guys don't need to know.haiya.Can things be better?I hope so it will.Oh ya.When is my F.O.T tee coming?hmmm.haha!

The tickets for this Saturday are in.Contact us if any of you want.Limited tickets with us.Only 10 tickets left I think.But don't worry,you still can get it at the doors on the day itself.And don't forget to sign in under our band's name when buying the tickets.Not for discounts but to have a record of the number of friends each band has.It will help us alot to get into the final session.We'll appreciate it alot if you guys can do us the favour.Serious.

Anyway,this is the poster for this Saturday.Spread the words around.There will be other awesome bands playing like our friends,4thirty and My Sweet Revenge.

So do come down to give all the bands your support.

Ok gotta get some rest.Going down to school awhile later and having jamming in the afternoon.

Later.

"And all the king's horses and all the king's men could not fix my broken heart again.Well,hopefully one day they will."

How I wish I can forgive myself each day.

2006-02-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

How I wish I can forgive myself each day.

Is it hard for you?or is it me?

Ok I'm sorry.

Complete with total adoration
My Gift to you, my heart was yours.
In 10 weeks you shaped it, in one night you murdered it.

Torn from my chest and layed at your feet, that first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark.
I still have these memories but we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. Cause thats all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory

I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real...
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?

I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.

So we'll go our own ways and hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you.
Hopefully, you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this but I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake.
I just wish the story didn't end this way...
Because I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked of where we'd be a year from now?

Year From Now
by Across Five Aprils

I won't forgive myself.

No hardcore dancing in the living room.

2006-02-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

N.H.D.I.T.L.R.R.E.M.I.X.

Hey guys.Another last minute update.I know this is shocking especially for the band.We'll be playing another gig on 18th Feb at Substation.Everything was last minute and unexpected.So here's the gig details.

Last Minute Gig
Date: 18th February 2006 (Saturday)
Venue: The Substation Guiness Theater
Tickets: $6

Band Lineup:

Ana Judge April
The Perfect Lie
Capulet's End
Dr. M's Contradiction
Juliet's Diary
Rancour
6th Avenue
Jackalhyde
*Ego Stereo
Mulysa

Do come down to give us the support for both gigs yea?

I'll update more if there is any changes.

Ok later.

No hardcore dancing in the living room.

A short update on the gig this Saturday.

SESSIONS! 02
Featuring :

*Ego Stereo
The Perfect Lie
4 - Thirty
My Sweet Revenge
Jenna Junkers
Ingride
Project Ultrasound
The Derst
Amatuer Rockers

Date : 11th February 2006
Time : 4pm onwards
Venue : Katong Shopping Centre , 01-46

Tickets go at $5 per ticket.
available at the door and thru bands.

The stereo people will be playing this weekend.
Party goers please do drop by to give us some support and for some ego dancing.Haha!
For anyone who wants the ticket,please do contact me or any of the band members.

It's time for us to hit the tracks and for you to ego dance.

Overexposure to these kind of days.

2006-02-06T14:41:00.000+08:00

Overexposure to these kind of days.

If you ever feel down or bored,try listening to The Fall of Troy.Their songs will brighten up your day.Well,it helps for me.And damn,I gotta get their tees soon.Nice and simple design.but too bad they didn't have it here in Singapore.Somebody please get it for me.haha!

Dance to the beat of F.O.T

Ok I'm bored.

"All alone,now it feels so hopeless."

Well I feel so.

Am I losing this fight?

2006-02-02T02:15:00.000+08:00

Am I losing this fight?

Bad start for the month.Why can't just everything goes well?

"If we'd go again all the way from the start
I would try to change things that killed our love
Your pride has built the wall so strong that I can't get through!
Is there really no chance to start once again?
I'm loving you"

I'm not doing well.

Ok bye.

No one is safe inside my safety zone.

2006-01-31T00:28:00.000+08:00

No one is safe inside my safety zone(Part 2).

Here's the 2nd part for my entry.

Woke up late today.So tired.I'm also not sure what I did the night before.I decided not to go out today.Just wanted to rest at home.I was online the whole day and still online now.Did my own myspace account just now.Just the basic layout for now.I'll work on it soon.She'll be back today and I'm feeling so happy.I don't know why.Hmmm.Tomorrow will be the first day for the month of Feb.Few things up for next month.Gigs,birthday and stuff.Oh yea,my skin allergy and sore throat getting better.Well first,lets see what's up for me for the rest of the week.Later.

p.s I want to meet *you soon. Please.

No one is safe inside my safety zone(Part 1).

Few words to describe my long weekend so far.

Fun with Dick & Jane.
Wild wild wet.
Hang outs.
Skin allergy.
Sun burn.
Sore throats.
Stupid net connection.

1 more day to go.

Updates soon.Ok bye.

Warmness on the soul.

2006-01-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

Warmness on the soul.

The long weekends are here.Woohoo for most people but haiya for me.I'm just bored lah.Some of my friends are or will be out of town over the weekends.Damn.So whoever who got no plans like me,call me.Maybe we can chill or something.Haha!I don't want to stay at home over the 4 days doing nothing.Oh yea,gotta catch a movie soon.It's been long enough I never go to the movies.It's really time.Haha!and yea finally,I got my Rhino software but still yet to install.Gotta do it soon.I got to hand in 1 assignment after the holidays.The song warmness on the soul by A7x is now stuck in my head.Pretty nice song.Ok bye.

"Your hazel green tint eyes watching,
Every move I make.
And the feeling of doubt,
It's erased.
I'll never feel alone again,
With you by my side.
You're the one,
And in you I confide

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love,
Was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love has always been,
True as can be."

mynameisstillfaizal.

The Ego.The Stereo.

2006-01-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

The Ego.The Stereo.

This entry is gonna be a brief one cos I'm bored.If everyday is like this,I'll die of boredom.I rather do something den dying of boredom.Lucky tomorrow there's class and jamming after school.Gotta learn the songs for tomorrow's session later.Gig briefing this coming Friday.I signed the band in for a few more gigs today.Hope we can get those opportunities.Well,that's it for now.Later.

"I'm used to waiting
What's a voice without a face?
I think of dying without you here
So I drink myself to sleep
And then I hide beneath a sheet
And I try to disappear
But I get up every single time
Cuz you keep me alive"

and oh yea.I love Muffin.

himynameisfaizal.

2006-01-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

himynameisfaizal.

Hi.I'm bored now.I don't know wat to type but I just feel like blogging.Ok lets start from what happened yesterday.Yesterday's gig was great.First band,first hand crowd for the day.Thanks to UV,MSR and friends for the moshing shit and sing-a-long session.After our slot,we rushed to Fourtones Studio for audition for a gig in February.Results will be out in 5 days time.Like I said fingers crossed on that.No high hopes for that though.Then we headed back to Beats for the rest of the bands.Greats bands.Just too many Tbs covers yesterday.Haha.Overall tiring day.Ok FSA is history now.Good or Bad?I don't know.Not the time for band politics.We're gonna be a new band anyway.About today,nothing to update.I'll update again when I have the time.Ok later.

The face of vengeance.Himynameisfaizal.

You move slow like daytime drama and I'm boring like his songs.

2006-01-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

You move slow like daytime drama and I'm boring like his songs.

The weekends are here again.Damn it's fast.Time is fast but my life is slow.The last time I blogged was like 5 days ago.Class for the week is dry.Lectures all the way on some marketing and design processes modules and also CAD lessons.CAD is the only thing which is interesting.The rest is total madness of boredom.And man,I gotta find the Rhinoceros and Alias software soon to practice at home.The imitation ones of course.Haha!I can't afford the original softwares man.It's like the Rhino software cost around usd995 bux and the Alias one is 10-12 times more.I mean who can actually afford to buy those softwares.They are usually bought by companies and institutions.So does anyone know of any place which sell those 'underground' softwares?Haha!Tag me please.

School's aside.Had 3hrs of jamming on Wednesday evening at Soundmix Studio with the kids.At least finally,we sound abit better than the previous jamming.Oh ya,we'll be playing Play Out Loud gig on Saturday 21st at Beat Merchants Studio.(Click here for poster.)Poster taken from My Sweet Revenge's site.It's FSA first gig for the year but unfortunately,it's not the band actual line up.So if you guys wanna watch our performance,do come down at 4pm.We are the opening band for the gig.Ticket cost 5bux.
I've applied for a few gigs for the band.One of the audition will be tomorrow.It clashes with the gig so I'm not really sure if we are going for the audition but if we do,wish us luck.Fingers cross on this.

"One of us never did it but we're taking it all
And tell me why you never promised that you wanted it all
And her eyes never batted when she said it
It's a long night,open,know it..."

I'm just like a shadow in your life.

Blog entry title here.

2006-01-15T20:15:00.002+08:00

Blog entry title here.

Dear blog.I'm back to update about my life which I've been missing out for the past few days.School's been okay okay.Just workshop from wednesday to friday.Nothing much in school.The workshop has made me realise of what I really wanna do in the future.After much thoughts,I think I'll go for my degree in Lasalle and try my best to go to automotive designing.I really hope I can break into that industry.If I can't work here at least I can go abroad to work for Proton in Malaysia for a start then maybe the Europe.But before I can proceed,I need to clear my 2yrs with the government.haiya.But at least i can save up a little for my masters.Intending to continue my masters in Australia or U.K if everything goes well lah.Insya'Allah.It's just a plan for the future.I plan HE decides.Beside school lately,went out with aQ on wednesday for lunch.Intending to get my bro's present but we end up at swensen.Malas ah nak jalan.Den in the evening,had jamming.Tu lagi mendak giler.Then the rest of the week is history.Tomorrow is a new week.I hope I have something or somebody to look forward to.Well at least something good,I hope.I'm still living my life feeling so lost.*You know.

(Your Name Here.)

The Dream of Evan and Chan.

2006-01-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

The Dream of Evan and Chan.

Will you give me the chance to start it over with you?Will you be my Evan again?
Will we be able to share our dreams together again?I'm just wondering and will never stop wondering.

And it's not fair- why do I have to so?
Oh, I feel everything much more
much more than you ever will
and it's too hard when I can't even catch your eye
So I can't send you messages

And at night I dream of reasons I can't let you go
I don't know if it's time to crack through your walls
so thick that I can't see past you

And last summer wasn't enough for me
And now that winter comes
The cold beats harder
And no one is left alone
And I'm offering you me right now - Take me I'm yours
And I wont have it any other way
So don't let fools be carried by what I say

The night keeps lookin' our way
And you're not seein' what I'm missin'
Cause I am missing you
And I think that we should run as fast as we can
into what we dont know
It's time to let me in
Because I feel just fine.

Deciding by Saves The Day.

I still believe you are the one and I'll be waiting for you.

Forever and A Day.

2006-01-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

Forever and A Day.

Today was a short day in school.Came for class at 0930 and all ended at 1130 which we suppose to have class till 2030 today.Got the news that timetable will change soon.Hanged out at town after school today.Quite a boring day.Haiya.

This is for you.You know who you are.

"I thought we'd be together forever.
But it seems I was wrong and everything's falling apart.Think of what I've done for you.Think of all that we've been through.I hope every time he breaks your heart you think of me and how I was to you."

Kung-Fu for the new year.

2006-01-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

Kung-Fu for the new year.

Hello people of the Republic of Nonsensical-heartbreak-Kung-FU-mintak kene terajang country.I'm here to announce that I'm late for New Year updates.Always delaying.Kung fu the delays.New year is the year we all should look ahead to and not to look back.Kung-fu all bad memories and frame all good ones.2005 has been a tough year for me,if everyone knows.Damn it's been hard but things have to move on.All I have to say to her is.Good luck.I understand your situation.Hope things will get better for you in the future.My resolutions will be to go for my dreams I have in mind.Looking forward to the years ahead.I hope things will be better.Ok people till the next kung fu session.

Jackass Chan kung-fu-ing out.

I'm Lost Without You.

2005-12-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

I'm Lost Without You.

I swear that I can go on forever, again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips, and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am,
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now?
I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming
And if you will keep me from waking, to believe this
Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you

I'm Lost Without You by Blink 182.

Existentialism on prom night.

2005-12-25T11:25:00.000+08:00

Existentialism on prom night.

One day you'll come to me and ask me what's more important.You or my life?I'll say my life and you'll walk away never knowing you're my life.

The day the Earth stood still.

2005-12-24T19:18:00.000+08:00

The day the Earth stood still.

You're the happiest when I'm in despair?

Indeed I'm all alone.

Just alone.

The perfect day for misery and to fall in love all alone.

2005-12-22T15:42:00.000+08:00

The perfect day for misery and to fall in love all alone.

If you guys are wondering why I'm not online all this while is because my net is down for now.I'll be back soon.Life has been bad for me.Perfect days for me?No and never.Till then.

The leaves of gold are washed and bled, soaked in amber
Radiate
I am burned alive

The perfect day for misery and to fall in love all alone
I am dead inside this place without you
So cold
With you I am whole (with you)

The pictures are bleeding, the sky is falling
Raining knives cut the floor
Would you say I am empty?
I hear the voice outside this transistor radio
Today’s the perfect day
Ten thousand poisoned kisses stained

Today’s a dream (is this a dream?)
The sun is gone, it's killing me
It’s all I have known (all I know are shadows)
The pictures are bleeding, the sky is falling
Raining knives cut the floor
Would you say I am empty?
I hear the voice outside this transistor radio

Today’s the perfect day (I know)
Ten thousand poisoned kisses stained
Today’s the perfect day (I know)
Ten thousand poisoned kisses stained

(x4)
With my lost love I did it on my own
I did it on my own

Feelings that will never change, it hurts
Desperation in the cold
Save this last dance just for me

(x3)
Soon you will know (I did it my way) ten thousand poisoned kisses

I have ten thousand poisoned kisses for you

-Ten Thousand Poisoned Kisses by The Silence.

Secrets don't make friends.

2005-11-26T04:42:00.000+08:00

Secrets don't make friends.

Ok so I've decided to make my blog as a portfolio blog,art blog or watever you call it where I'll archive my designs,art works,photography,etc for you guys to see and comment.I've totally change the layout,skin and blog add.To those who wanna link me to your blog or site,you can go ahead and do so.This blog will not only be restricted to arts and designs,I'll also update on the on-going local music scene.

For now,this site will be the way it is.Additions to the blogskin designs,I don't know.Maybe,maybe not.I just wanna keep it simple.I'll update on the art section soon.And oh ya,I've added From First to Last's Note to Self to this site.Only those using internet explorer will be able to listen to the song.

Gig at 3pm later in the afternoon.

Gotta' get some sleep first.

Till the next updates.

The fluid through the alpha waves and power cables everywhere.

2005-11-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

The fluid through the alpha waves and power cables everywhere.

Still remember power rangers?They were first released in 1994 if I'm not wrong when I was still in primary 1.It was way back 11 years ago.

Kids looking up to them as heroes back then,trying to be and imitate their moves and not forgetting,spending so much money on their toys(I was one of the kids when come to this..haha!).Those were the good old days.

Guess what I came across today when I was browsing myspace.A new version of power rangers for those emo kids in the present scene;Mighty Moshin' Emo Rangers.Haha! Eventhough,they aren't official fan film but I think it's a pretty cool stuff.Credits to those kids who actually made the short film.Pretty cool fight scenes and nice graphic effects.It's like martial art meets le parkour.Credits also goes to the band who played the theme song,Fei Comodo.You can check them out here.A good band with awesome songs.

So emo kids out there who actually like power rangers back then,what you waiting for?Click on this link to check out the emo rangers.Haha!

Ok later people.Out.

Dear diary, my teen angst has a body count.

2005-11-22T02:34:00.000+08:00

Dear diary, my teen angst has a body count.

Been awhile I didn't update.Hmmm.What have I been doing for the past few days?

Wednesday 15th Nov to Friday 18th Nov
Slack,slack and more slacking at home.

Saturday 19th Nov
Raya outing with secondary sch friends.

Sunday 20th Nov
As usual.No plans+Home+Computer=Slack.

Monday 21th Nov
Job interview.
Jamming at Beat Merchants.

Today,Tuesday 22th Nov
It's 2.30am now and I'm not asleep yet.
Thinking of what to blog with the background music of From First to Last.
From First to Last cover of Saosin's Seven Years?Sounds cool.

Ok thats all for now.Later.

Note to self:I miss you terribly.

To quench my love for violent things.

2005-11-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

To quench my love for violent things.

Hey guys.Just a little update for the day.Check out Sadistic Secrets Clothing.They are a local clothing line.They will be launching and their first tee will be out in December.Pre-orders are available now.For more info,you can check them out here.And do check out Funeral for a Friend's History.It's the new single off the album Hours.You can watch their video here.

Same old songs on a brand new stereo.

2005-11-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

Same old songs on a brand new stereo.

Didn't thought that I would start blogging back but I did.So here it goes,a new blog and a first entry.